sink or swim

Happy Samhain to all!! [yay]
Odin and I carved his pumpkin today. The innards grossed him out a little at first, and then he ate some of them and decided they were good for playing. He mostly likes to take the top off the pumpkin and stick it inside, which shall become problematic once the candle is lit. After he went to sleep I painted the rest of them because they were too small to even think about carving. There are now deeeeelicious pumpkin seedses on the table and they are sooo yummy I don't know if I can save enough for everyone to get some.
I'm having an excellent holiday thus far. Last night I had a lot of quiet time and some divination with tea leaves, and today I've had plenty o' fun with Odin, gotten to be crafty, and shall get to paint Rhiannon's face up gypsy-makeup style when we take the kids out trick or treating tonight. Super excellent.
Odin's dragon costume is all ready to go. I definitley neglected to get together anything for myself this year, but that's okay. I'm just going to go as a Witch, and that way I don't need to dress up :D

I probably have dozens of things to do, but chilling for a minute on the computer seemed like a really good idea. I have some blogs to go check methinks...
Oh, and since there will be Halloween pictures, perhaps I can get some FOs and WIPs taken and uploaded and posted... I have accomplished so freaking much and have no images, and that is distressing.
Anyway. I'm going to go read some blogs and maybe mess with mine a little bit while Odin is asleep. Now that the CD player is playing MY music and not freaking country things are nice and reeeeeeee-laxed here.
yay.
Happy Stephanie's Favorite Holiday.

i'm gonna sing the doom song!

I sat down to blog and Nic sends me this::

Ninja Parade Slips Through Town Unnoticed Once Again
It's pretty funny shit.

Graham is offline now. All I can do is mail him letters and wait for him to call me and I'm distressed and minorly heartbroken. I've been listening to staggering amounts of Katatonia and A Perfect Circle and desire little more than complete emotional fulfilment.
Which I find nowhere.

James called me today to see if I could hang out with him for Halloween, but it's on a Wednesday.
James is silly.

I can't seem to distract myself from Graham, except with Knitting. My search for socks to knit Graham isn't going so well.
I finally got the WIP I left at Christmas Mike's back, the scarf for James. But I haven't touched it yet. Too much gaming, too many wash/dishcloths to make, and I started Heather's purse. [Hipster, Knitty]

...Odin is sooooo sleepy and soooo awake... Ideally I would like for him to fall asleep soon so I can play with Interwebs and then go to sleep myself. Maybe I should just go to sleep. I dunno.
I'm done now.

le sigh.

Graham will be offline indefinitely soon.
This is really a sad realization. But things are in the works for becoming resolved, and I'm not going to just sit around here and wish I could go be near him [which is where I wanted to go anyway, before I even met him].
I really really miss him already.

Anyway, in other news, my PacMan dishcloth is done and two and a half of the three Ghosties I'm making are done too. I know I should have four, but I only had three random colors of cotton yarn... PacMan is in a multicolor, which has really nice red/pink pooling but other than that it sucks. Who wants single-row stripes of purple and flourescent yellow? Bad Peaches 'n' Creme, BAD! After that I'm going to knit a few Travelling Lace Cloths [link later, or go Ravelry it] and then go back to Missy's socks and Graham's hat and James' scarf. Oh, and start Heather's purse.
I adore Heather.
She is my super bestest friend ever.
I have no idea what the intarsia on her purse shall say, but I fucking love intarsia, way more than goddamn fair isle.
Fuck fair isle. My stranding is always too tight.
Anyway, off to chase my little bugger around and take him outside.

bada-bing

So. I feel loads better since my last post. Odin isn't as "fuck you, mom" to me as he'd been being, I've learned to deal with the fact that though I'm Andy's oldest friend here I'm also the least important and certainly not someone he's remotely concerned about as everybody seems to talk to him all the time and I hear from him only once in a fucking while.
Anyway. I've been generally relaxing and hanging out, and I'm doing laundry right now. To be honest, I'm only blogging because I'm waiting around hoping Graham gets online. To be even more honest, I don't think he's gonna, not until much later, if his computer lets him on at all.
I went to talk to A Lady About A Job today with Janelle, at this restaurant she works at in St. Louis. She said they were talking and some Other Lady is going to call me and set up an interview and that nobody there gets interviews and then not hired.
So that's fucking sweet. Someplace that doesn't mind training somebody? Wheeee! She's gotta do some finding-stuff-out, but she'll be needing a roommate sooooon and my mom's gonna give me my first chunk of rent. Plus if it doesn't happen before I really need to leave Sanford, I have a place I can stay with no worries, even with Odin included. I'll have to get a new daycare, but that is so remarkably easy I'm not even slightly worried about it, plus I have a slew of people who would watch Odin for me if I needed them to. Yay. I loveses my friends, especially Mike, who is in Louisiana... Mike who I was supposed to visit and who I missed going to a GUMBO COOKOFF with. !!!
Missed a gumbo cookoff!!! I can't believe it. I would trade a left toe of the taker's choosing to have been at that gumbo cookoff. Then again, I'd give my entire right arm to be in North Carolina, so I suppose I shouldn't keep going around offering body parts.
Though really, that just smatters with deal-with-the-devil allure. Too bad I don't believe in the devil. I'd make a deal with him. Lawful evil is something I can totally handle.
Anyway, here, look at these crazy sea creatures!!!

Oooooh, AND, I have a brand-new Zombie Event Plan. Actually, I have a Plan and several Contingencies. I think it's a good think I ganked that respirator. Now I just need a houseboat. Or a fleet of them.

yeah, done.

So, one incredibly long weekend later, here I am.
I am no wiser and much more broke. I am sore and achy, insatiably hungry, and accomplished only six rows of the scarf I'm knitting. I had the best thing I've ever tasted today [Pumpkin Spice Shake from Culver's], I saw tons of movies, I got shitfaced and hungover and subsequently taken care of, I had long afternoon naps and long backrubs of pure joy. I had long bong rips, too, but those mostly ended in coughing fits.
I got stood up, I got invited to be 'saved', I had a generally good time. I missed my baby a lot. I missed Andy a lot too, but he's too busy not blowing off his other friends to realize he keeps blowing off Heather and me. It sucks and it really fucking hurts.

I wish Odin had been awake when I got home. As it was, he slept for hours after I got here and then woke up and didn't even care that I was around. Talk about fucking depressing... Doug ran a D&D game, which was okay because I wanted to play, but not okay because it was 3.5.

Well. I have loads of things to say, but Doug says he needs to sleep and I have to stop...

boring-day

Man is today lame and boring... Right now anyway.
I hate waiting. I hate it with every fiber of my soul. And seriously, my soul is entirely composed of fiber. That's really a lot of hate.
I'm filling my day with coffee and Jenny's MySpace playlist and cutting up the Jager t-shirt Christmas Mike gave me. Cutting it up into something new, something horribly Stephanie-esque which looks like a big pile of rag until my boobs come into play.
I really don't know what I'd do without these boobs, they just look good in all my clothes. They really do get in the way though, when I'm trying not to make new friends...
But anyway.
So James is about the coolest guy ever. He tells me he has "good news", but that was a LIE, it was fantastic news. Fantstic fantastic.
This coffee is motherfucking WEAK ass shit, I'm so horribly disappointed. Oh well. I get to see Traci this weekend too, and I'll make sure to see Nic and Heather, yay.

helter skelter, run for shelter

I keep meaning to actually type something here, but then I just do another MySpace survey... Psssh. So, stuff:

Knitting!!
Graham's hat is almost done, but I'm having some issues with some of the colorwork and I think I'm just going to omit it...
I need to find out how big Missy's feet are so I can make her Yule socks. I'm afraid to do too much knitting on them lest I should knit the foot too long...
I've written a pattern for James' Yule Scarf, and by "write pattern" I mean I decided where to knit and where to purl. Nothing fancy, no cables or colorwork or anything. I AM going to experiment with dyeing it post knitting though... I started the scarf and have been through 2/3 of the first pattern repeat. Leave it to me to write a fucking 38 row pattern repeat. *smacks forehead*

Other stuff!!
My social life has taken a sudden upswing, possibly because I'm not avoiding social situations anymore. I have a four day weekend starting Thursday. I was GOING to go to Louisiana to visit Mike, but that didn't work out... Oh well, other times I guess. James and I have been a little over zealous in making plans to watch various movies/ shows, however, and have probably an entire month of stuff-watching planned. :O

Halloween Haunted House fun with Missy is approaching, as well as Halloween partying. It's going to be weeeeird. Halloween was my anniversary with Doug and this is our first one apart since the breakup. But my birthday happens right after that. Maybe this one won't suck so badly...

Also.
I'll be moving back into Mt. Pleasant sometime soon I bet, I just don't know when yet. Doug and I will NOT be living together, and he will have Odin on weekends, so [knowing me and my ability to be talked into almost anything that includes whiskey] I'll probably be going out a lot more.
I STILL WANT TO GO TO VIRGINIA THOUGH. There will eventually be a nasty custody battle, but I'm going to go to the ocean and to Graham, and that's all there is to it. In the right here and right now, I understand that I'll need to sign a lease, but that's alright.
I have friends here, I love my friends a lot... And I get to spend more time with them now. And pretty soon Graham will be moving, and then we'll actually be able to Phone-Talk, and that will be exxxxxcellent.
But I need to go, I have stuff to put away and knitting to work on before dinnerings.
Man, I hate living out here in nowhere.

Oh hey.
Has anybody else been given conflicting information from their inner voice? Mine is telling me to do things that I'm not sure will work out the way it's telling me they will...
Maybe I need to just shut up and trust myself.

oh, fuck this.

So finally time to type. Though not too much time.
I've been really busy lately, I
-got a speeding ticket. $145 for ten over! I shouldn't complain though, since I was going 30 over...

Attention: Animals

Please stop running around in the road. I don't want to hit you with my van. I would be very very sad.
Please also stop trailing your babies behind you, or thinking that maybe you can run around between my tires and freak the fuck out of me for fun. This is really unacceptable.